Oh gosh, where have I been? That’s a good question for you all to ask me. I made a promise to you all about getting more real and personal on the blog and then disappeared for a month and a half. You’re all probably saying “What’s going on Bronte?” And so I’m here to tell you, the last month and a half, I have spent a lot of time on me. And I’m gonna explain to you what that means.
When I graduated last, I made a list of the things I wanted to do. I wanted to rock the LSATs. I wanted to learn to cook, get in shape, read 4 books a months. My goal for my year off was to figure out the things that make me happy. Graduating in 3 years, I called this my fourth year of college-but my classes were about life and learning about myself. Right out of graduation, I started working for my dad at the bakery and then within two weeks of moving to San Luis Obispo, I was lucky to get a full time job at a senior living home. I became busy and those things on my list kind of got pushed away.
And then life happened. I found myself coming back from an amazing trip in the Pacific Northwest without a job. I had a lot more free time, and I spent it wallowing a little. I’ve come back with no job, and I had spent a ton of money on my trip thinking I was coming back to a job. I was working on law school applications and doubting myself. Until I had an epiphany of sorts. I was sitting on my porch watching the sunsets that California is all too well known for, and I realized God had sent me this time. He had sent me this time without a job and without anything going on particularly that I could spend time on me. And make me happy.
So I did. I joined a gym and have gone 6 days a week. That’s led me to losing almost 20 pounds since February 14th (yes, I joined my gym on Valentine’s Day). Working out and sweating it out, pushing myself to work a little harder and do a little more has made me happy. I’ve found some awesome food blogs to make homemade food, like bread, granola, and yogurt. Yes, I learned to make my own bread! I’m really proud of myself about that.
I’ve read a bunch of books on my wishlist, been able to wander around a library and read whatever I want. I’ve learned about women in the Alaskan fishing trade, about first ladies, read a lot on early American democracy and the early years of America. I have read about French living tips-I have a post planned about it- and I read about God. I read about prayer, I read about history, I read my Bible, I read about having a relationship with Him. And that was really cool.
Now I know most people can’t take off two months and have no job and no worries. That isn’t the case for me either. I worried about money and finances. I’m going to law school this fall, I should be saving up as much as I can. Thankfully, I have parents who have been able to help support me, financially and spiritually as I learned what made me happy. I have quite a bit of anxiety and that hasn’t gone away. It can still wake me up at 3 in the morning and keep me up till 7. But I’ve become happier. And I know what’s making me happy. It’s a pretty nice mindset to have.
Anyways, I have posts planned and stuff to talk to you all about, so I won’t go missing again.